Waste my days

So I don't really have anything to blog about. And to be honest right now I should be doing a 1500 word essay, but I've got writer's block, so.... Yeah. Sweet. So things on my mind. I should really send an email to my 5th grade teacher. And my days lately seem to be a waste of life. I'm really pathetic, passing my days doing nothing. Ugh. I also should be working out right now, one of my best friends has this bet thing going on where we have to do the exact same work out everyday for a month and in the end, we'll see who's better off. :) It's great motivation. Anywho. Yeah. I'm off and with one last song, ♪You'll never do the things you want, if you don't move and get a job, Waste my days!♫

As it goes on

So... this basically sucks. These past few weeks I've been through a lot. I've had a lot of ups and downs. And though it's moments like these that define me, they've also made me realize that time is moving forward. Which sucks. I remember this one time when I was maybe three or four, I was sitting in the back seat in my mother's rusty, red suburban. I had been thinking and I said, "Mommy, I'm going to stay like this forever, and you're going to stay like this forever, and daddy, and grandpa too!" That's the moment I learned people grow older. Thanks for bursting my bubble mom. I mean I've always known I'd grow older, but I never really thought about it. Thought about what will happen. I've just kind of lived for the now. But now I'm growing up and my older siblings are one by one moving out and it's made me realize I'm not going to be a kid much longer. In a few years I'm going to have to move out and be on my own. Honestly, it kind of scares me. I'm scared of leaving my parents, I'm scared I'm going to fall out with my siblings and not talk to them for 16 years like my mother did because none of them have the time or their just not willing to make an effort. I don't know. For some this is a scary ordeal, but for others it's like a dream come true. I don't like growing up. Where's Peter Pan when you need him?

I wish, I wish, Too late.

Have you ever done that? Done something you totally regret doing? Or in my case not doing. Of course you have, the only viewer I have is me. Hah. It absolutely kills me. If I could go back in time, I would and there is so much I would change. Not so much with what I've done wrong, those wrong decisions define you. I think more over the things that I wish that I would've done. It's like I used to say "At the end of the day the only thing that matter is did you do something that will make you proud of yourself, even fifty years from now." Yeah. Not so much for me.

Twilight.

So I finished reading the book Twilight some time ago and honestly to this day there is still something that bothers me. Don't get me wrong I like the book for the most part, in fact it's pretty good. Whenever I would read books I would always get annoyed at the female main character because they were always so...flimsy. They always were scared and dumb. But in Twilight the main character, Bella, is so clumsy, but smart and brave. What bothers me is how depressed she is. She gets so depressed when she's away from her stupid boyfriend and she like practically clings to him like remoras to a shark, maybe that's not the best simile, like a joey to a Koala. I mean honestly. She's like an inch away from tattooing Edward, on her back! Pft. Get over it loser. I know she's just some fictional character, but seriously though. I know quite a few people like that, males and females. They feel like they need their significant other or else they have nothing and life is worth nothing. C'mon people! Life itself is worth more than a million! And having that special someone, sure that makes life all the more special. But seriously grow up. You can't always rely on one person. End of rant, cause I'm hungry.
P.S. Don't ever eat casserole while watching PLEASANTVILLE, it'll make you sick. ;P

WELCOME!

Welcome to my blog! I realize I probably have, oh, zero readers. But that's good enough for me. For those who wonder about my blog... How many? Do I see a show of hands.. Ah! Yes, you sir! What do you think my blog will be about? Hmm... I see... Close. You, madam, do you know? Why yes! It is the average, run of the mill whatever-I-feel-like-cause-I'm-a-teenager-so-I-will-whine-my-butt-off blog. Very good! And now that you all see I'm half crazy or completely for that matter, let the ranting begin! Tomorrow... or when I feel like it...eventually.